Can I do nothing right?

[fatrockstar]

Obviously. I can't exercise right. I can't manage my personal interactions right. I can't even rant right. Lately I've been trying to get things off my chest and getting really good feedback... but I can't help feeling when I read it that I didn't have anything to complain about in the first place. I was just being lazy or childish.

I'm not depressed, really. I think I'm just in a period of frustrating disappointment. I feel ignored by others and myself. I'm just not listening.

Someone commented over in the femalemusicians community that I should just form my own band. If I knew more about music and had more connections I would.

And what's this bullshit in my personality that keeps me from getting motivated or finishing anything? I feel like the biggest flake on the planet. I have this great little workshop and all these ideas and nothing ever comes of them.

If my throat didn't hurt so bad right now I'd just go run all this ickiness away. Maybe I'll do that tomorrow. Until then, I'm going to go sit under a rock and suck my thumb.

Comments

[waning-estrogen.livejournal.com]

I feel like this a lot, too.
I've been looking at your flylady and thinking I should try some of that.
I can see things there that would help me get motivated, but I'm really
put off by some of the christian-blessing-helpmate 50-ish stuff and,
of course, all that inane LOL. I'm wondering if I can get past that
enough for it to be of any value to me.

[winifred.livejournal.com]

I got past the Xian overtones after the initial shock after reading a couple of testimonials from a non-Xian and an athiest. They just substituted FlyLady's "Godbreezes" to something else and rolled with it. Blessings are blessings, whether they're from you, the universe, or this "God" person everybody seems to be raving about. ;) I delete most of the emails anyway and stick to the reminders.

[waning-estrogen.livejournal.com]

this God person has really been in my face for a couple of days now.

my son is going to see the movie tomorrow. not a problem with that.

problem: with his church youth group and the youth pastor who is such
a freakazoid fundamentalist zealot, he'll probably start bleeding from
his palms during the movie. he has a full day planned, with pre- and
post-viewing 'activities.'

I think we've got some pre-commitment activities I just came up with, so
that he only goes to the movie.