First night back in years

[fatrockstar]

I felt like I had never left and never really been there before all at once. I also may have pulled a muscle in my shoulder.

I'm off my meds since the bacterial infection laid me out and forced me to limit my intake to 800 calories or less a day. How the hell do anorectics do that? I was foggy and judgment-impaired for a week, AND premenstrual to boot. Needless to say, it hasn't been a good time for me. My food lust is back in force, and in the last couple of days I have found myself unable to avoid eating when I am full or not hungry. I have been able to pace myself so far with the Valentine candy I bought myself. The Girl Scout cookies are another story entirely.

So today is as good a day as any to get started on that one week trial over at Evolution Fitness. I learned a lot about my limitations when it comes to a gym -- location is only part of the equation. I don't like a crowded gym, and I don't like a quiet gym. I've never been in a gym where you can't just go up to the counter and ask them to change the channel on the sound system. I end up tuning it out anyway, and earbuds are uncomfortable. Evolution was empty enough for me to get everything done and had just enough music going on in the background to keep it from being creepy.

I realized that after six months of Winter I can still jog for several minutes without too many problems. The stairmaster is still too much for some reason (I find this irritating, as it was my cardio of choice back in '89-92). A bunch of other things, but for the most part this gym will do fine. The only thing keeping me from jumping into a membership is not knowing where my next job will be. My shoulders and back are swollen from lifting and will be pretty sore in a couple of days. It feels really, really good.

As for the meds, I'll have to return to them soon. I can't do the destructive eating and be sick and cranky all the time. I prefer being able to eat only when I'm hungry and having the freedom to eat with friends without overdoing it. I will talk to my doctor about these tendencies. Maybe there's something more effective I can take or something else to consider when it comes to my appetite.

But yeah... I like the direction this is going. Amanda gave me a 2nd-hand stationary bike to dink around with. I think it needs some WD-40, but it otherwise works great. Grady is not convinced. I really should have done this months ago when it started to get really cold.

Comments

[xaotica.livejournal.com]

random lj-friend of skipbreakfast says... recently i started wearing oldschool big headphones instead of earbuds. i find them much more comfortable plus people don't come up and start talking to me without noticing that i have headphones in and can't immediately hear them. the brand i got also has a bunch of silly fake fur around the ear which is surprisingly comfortable.

i find cutting calories to be miserable and am much happier eating what i want and exercising regularly. i'm not even sure i could handle 800 calories a day without passing out and/or murdering someone. i get SO mean when i don't eat regularly.

[winifred.livejournal.com]

Oh hi there!

Don't the large headphones get in the way of some of your exercises? I'd worry that the weight of them would make them fall off during bent-over moves like deadlifts or rows. I have some large headphones -- not sure how well they'd do for everyday workouts.

I prefer to eat what I want, too, which is why I got into lifting. My metabolism is catching up to me these days, so I have to count. My regular intake is closer to 1800. I hear ya about not getting enough to eat -- I made a lot of interpersonal mistakes while I was constantly hungry.

[xaotica.livejournal.com]

nope, they don't. i'm of the impression that my head is a little bigger than the average person's, though... 'one size fits all' hats frequently don't fit me. so it's possible that part of the reason they don't fall off is that they're pressing against my head kinda hard. they don't slide around at all in general actually.

it's hard for me to accurately track my calories because i try to avoid eating a lot of frozen/processed foods but when i eat stuff i cooked there's not an easy way other than painstakingly entering the recipe into nutrition data (http://www.nutritiondata.com/mynd/myrecipes/welcome?returnto=/mynd/myrecipes).. and although it's a neat site, i'm way too lazy. i even got a little iphone app to do it but i still hardly ever do. i did learn from the iphone app that in order to lose weight i'm s'posed to be eating 1,200 calories/day or less, and i'm certain that i rarely eat that few. i know part of the issue is that i just need to gradually reduce the amount i eat so that my body gets used to eating less vs. trying to cut it dramatically, leaving me starving and grumpy... but it's hard to figure out how much to cut that won't leave me hungry and pissy ;)

[winifred.livejournal.com]

When I returned to fitday.com after several years away I found they have a weight loss calculator on there that tells you how many calories a day you need to be eating to reach your weight goal in the time frame you specify. I found it helpful. Is that the sort of thing you found at nutrition data?