Wellbutrin

[fatrockstar]

Haven't taken any for about three days. I remember to take my stomach meds alright -- if I forget, my body reminds me -- but the WB is too hard to remember to take consistently. I bought a 2-alarm watch to help me out, but it's not as helpful as it probably should be. I don't even keep the damn thing near me when I'm not wearing it (so it can't wake me if I sleep in). I've noticed my appetite change, but not much else. I don't want to take Wellbutrin anymore. I don't want to take ANY antidepressant anymore. I don't think it was working as well as it used to anyway.

Rehearsal tested my limits again. If Guitarman pushes me and my input aside one more time, I think I may just walk on out. If I don't walk out, I will certainly tell him how much I hate our demo. Before, I was merely subtle about my displeasure. This week we were in the middle of a song that needed to be worked on, and when I asked for something to change he said "okay," followed by "let's move on." WTF?? I want to change it, AND THEN PRACTICE THE CHANGE. I sang halfheartedly for the rest of my time there, and only stayed long enough to visit briefly with Mrs. Drummer and The Boy. Musicians... @#!!

Garret turned 27 Saturday. He is now officially a grownup.

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[skwairpeg.livejournal.com]

Wellbutrin didn't work very well for me - made me even more irritable, had side effects like profuse sweating and racing heart, plus it was too hard to remember to take. I haven't taken anything for depression for maybe 6 months, and I'm doing just fine. I'm also extremely busy, so maybe I'm just not finding time to be depressed. I still feel slumpy at times, but you know. The point of my rambling is that if you don't want to take it anymore, don't. Maybe you'll find that you feel less depressed as you get more and more engrossed in your music, etc. Maybe you'd be better off trying another antidepressant if you're still having troubles after a while. But I think it's totally okay to go unmedicated if that's what you want. I feel like I got a grip on my own depression and don't need medicine in order to function anymore. But if I ever do go back there, I'll have to do what I'll have to do. Good luck to you, I know it truly is a hard battle to fight sometimes. :)

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[winifred.livejournal.com]

...I think it's totally okay to go unmedicated if that's what you want.

I agree with this. What makes it so profound is the doctors and counselors that don't know me well enough to let me make this kind of decision for myself without a lot of rabble-rabble. Wellbutrin worked well for me when I needed it to. Here I am roughly nine months later and it doesn't pack the punch it used to, and increasing the dosage leads to the side effects you just named. In the long run, the multivitamin and regular exercise will be better mood managers.

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[skwairpeg.livejournal.com]

I just listened to a radio show on am today about how the medical industry doesn't want us to take responsibility for our own health... just do what the doctor tells you, take your pills and let's bill the shit out of your insurance company. Forget about natural healing. You're on the right track. Fuck those bastards!

/conspiracy theory rant