I had no idea how common this behavior is.

However, it only happens with Garret. I am immune.

I am long overdue

Let me tell you internet --

My days of being pushed around by people is coming to an end. I'm sick and tired of having my kind and forgiving nature taken advantage of. When I was a punk kid I would be nice to people for what they could do for me. Then I grew the fuck up.

I want people to be happy, it's a flaw of mine that I'm okay with since I don't dole out kindness or compassion at a loss. I do it because I want to. It's one of the few things I can do that doesn't make me feel like a jackass.

But GOD FUCKING DAMMIT I am fed up with being manipulated by people who haven't grown the fuck up and feel like anybody who has the audacity to walk the same earth as them owes them diddly shit. I don't owe anybody kindness. I'd sooner kick you in the head than look at you, that's how little I care about what you think you deserve. But I don't. I'm nice. When you shit on me and treat me like dirt, I'm nice. When you take my kindness and give nothing in return, I'm nice.

Sadly, it is now time to NOT be nice.

I asked my housemate four days ago (yes, four -- it was Sunday that I asked this) so very kindly, and with a smile on my face, to please empty the dishwasher for me. I felt it was only fair since I had been doing what are normally his chores all week. Today I asked again (nicely and without the slightest bit of irritation in my voice) and got attitude. "I might," he said. I wanted to scream at him but didn't. Why did I not do that? Why did I not screw up my face in anger and yell

YOU'D BETTER, BECAUSE IF YOU DON'T I'M GOING TO BREAK EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DISH IN THERE AND THEN PUT THE SHARDS IN YOUR BED FOR YOU TO SLEEP ON

Why didn't I do that? Why oh why? I'll tell you why -- it's because I'm nice.

I'm at the end of my rope. I'm also afraid I've caught the Seattle Passive-Aggressive Syndrome from this person. Go ahead, say it: "SPAS" -- it's funny. Before this year is out I will make the evening news. My mugshot will be me wide-eyed and grinning with crazy hair. I will look like the goddamn Joker. It will be because I went on a killing spree and hacked up three people who have pushed me beyond my patience. They press charges for that, you know.

So there you have it, internet. I am not going to be pushed around anymore. I will either blow up or become a SPAS victim.

And yes, I do know this is a public post. Why do you ask?