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Saturday, 10 May 2003 00:09I have to go away for a while.
I enjoy reading you all, but I can't do this anymore. I can't pretend to bare my soul to the world when I no longer have a soul to bare.
I just recently learned something that is threatening my marriage and my well-being. Never is a very strong word. I hope it gets resolved soon.
Truth be told, I haven't been honest with anyone except for my husband in over a year. I have been hiding behind him and leaning on him heavily while putting my best face forward to people I consider my friends. Especially during the worst times of wedding planning, and through dealing with my mother's death.
As a result of this, he is exhausted and I am lonely. I have no outlet for my pain, and he has changed his mind about several things that I thought I was marrying him for.
So, that said... I have to go.
Bye.
I enjoy reading you all, but I can't do this anymore. I can't pretend to bare my soul to the world when I no longer have a soul to bare.
I just recently learned something that is threatening my marriage and my well-being. Never is a very strong word. I hope it gets resolved soon.
Truth be told, I haven't been honest with anyone except for my husband in over a year. I have been hiding behind him and leaning on him heavily while putting my best face forward to people I consider my friends. Especially during the worst times of wedding planning, and through dealing with my mother's death.
As a result of this, he is exhausted and I am lonely. I have no outlet for my pain, and he has changed his mind about several things that I thought I was marrying him for.
So, that said... I have to go.
Bye.
